Why is it so hard?

Why is it so hard to write a blog?
Well, specifically, why is it so hard to write a blog about what I love doing?

I always have the best intentions to keep my blog up-to-date because I enjoy reading others' sporting blogs and want to make my own contribution to the sporting community. I find it intersting to read about sporting challenges and experiences and quite often I learn something as well or realise something about my own training and racing. Even if it's just hearing about how other people are dealing with snow interrupting their training, I find it quite motivational to read top training/racing blogs.

When I started this blog, my aim was to be a part of that - provide people with something to read about the sport I love and share my passion with the wider World.
And if that means I've encouraged a few people to get out there and run, bike or swim a little bit more then I consider that a hugely positive impact to have on the World.

However writing about myself and my racing/training is hugely self-indulgent! If I've had a good race, then writing a report always seems like showing off and I can never work out how to write anything in a way others might want to read. And if I've had a bad race, then I really just want to put it behind me and forget about it.
And then there's training. It's hard enough to just look at my training plan. Doing the training is even harder. I'm not entirely sure I want to write about it as well!
Plus, as any of my friends will testify, I really don't have any spare hours in my day - it's all taken up by training, working, training, sleeping and eating. When it comes to spare time I always feel it would be nice to spend this with people instead of giving yet more time to my training/racing even more by writing about it as well!

OK, I think I've got all of my excuses in now... But I do have this blog, and last week I was reminded why this isn't all about me.
I was running round the track, enjoying the lighter evenings and getting a good hard session in with the rest of the group when I ran past the U13s group sat by the steeplechase barrier and I overheard one girl saying "Ooh here she comes, I like watching her run".
And that's when I realised that me running, cycling and swimming isn't just about me - it's about having the opportunity to show people how much fun running can be so that they too can enjoy it, to inspire people to make the most of their talents, to work hard and enjoy being active.
So maybe this isn't so self-indulgent - maybe it's about showing what a hell of a lot of hardwork can achieve, and how fun that can be!