If you’ve not read every single moan I’ve written in this
blog, then you’ve missed a lot of complaining about all the races I’ve missed:
big races, World Championships, small races, team races, track races, road
races, duathlons, triathlons – everything from 400m on the track to Olympic
distance triathlon. I wouldn’t recommend you read my old blog posts, unless you’re
feeling so entirely out-of-this-world positive that you need a bit of negativity
to bring you back to reality. Being injured is a pain – actually a pain;
walking, driving, sleeping, sitting etc were all a pain, never mind trying to
run, bike or swim. And on top of that it’s a bit of a mental battle as you see every
sporting thing you’d planned going ahead without you – races still go on,
everyone else keeps on training, sporting social circles continue to exist
without you. You’re confined to the side lines of what had been a core part of
your life, and it’s hard to stay positive during these times. No matter what
other activities you fill your time with or how you make the most of the extra
time and seize the opportunity to focus on other interests, there’s no denying that
when you can’t do something you love and are passionate about, things get a
little tough.
I absolutely love my sport(s) and everything they bring to
my life. I love running. Every time I see somebody else running, even if I’ve
already run that day, I will wish I was running. Every time I see water, I wish
I was swimming in it – and I’ve been that way as long as I can remember. And
every time I see a cyclist speeding along beautiful country roads, I usually
wish I could cycle as well as them and then I wish I was cycling! As I’ve said
before, the social side of sport is fantastic – the camaraderie from being part
of a team, the friends you make training and competing and the like-minded
people you meet everywhere you run, bike or swim! Seeing friends work hard in
training and improve is always inspiring, and I love how happy people are when
they’ve had a good race. It’s a great world to be part of and although I do
love getting good results of my own, I knew I’d be happier as soon as I was
back in my sporting world instead of letting it all pass me by, following my
friends triumphs and tribulations from the side lines.
So after missing a lot of races, less than 2 months ago I
decided I’d had quite enough of not racing. Even if I was going to be racing
quite slowly, I wanted to be part of it all again. Since then I’ve done a few road
races and some short cross-country races – 5km is my limit till I manage to get
some more training in. I was hoping I’d be able to race myself back to a
reasonable level of fitness. For me, no training every matches the intensity of
racing. I would say I can push myself quite hard in training, hit times on reps
that I need to – but I often have another gear in racing that I can never find
in training. Must be my competitiveness!
It’s taken 6 weeks, but I now feel like I’m able to race
hard over 5km, which is a huge improvement on where I was at the end of
September, running XC races in trainers and having to take a few days off a
week. I’ve had my first top 10 XC finish of the season, finishing 7th
at the North Staffs league in Stafford, plus a week later I clocked a decent
5km time of 18:58 in the Telford ParkRun. I’ve had a great time racing again,
training back on the track with my team mates and enjoying some lovely runs
round the countryside. I’m definitely a lot more positive about everything than
I was 2 months ago, but whilst I’m on my way back, I’m certainly not there yet
and this weekend reminded me how far I still have to go.
This weekend was the Grafham Water Duathlon that I had
optimistically entered a few weeks back when British Triathlon suddenly
announced a raft of late season races which would be qualifiers for next years’
European Duathlon Champs. After missing pretty much every single big race I
wanted to do this year, I was really annoyed that the qualifiers had been moved
5 months ahead of their normal schedule, giving me very little chance of
getting fit enough to qualify. Regardless of this, I entered the race and hoped
that I would be able to take part. Last weekend I was out on my bike, and after
30 minutes cycling I had a bit of an epiphany…no matter how much I wanted to
race, it was very unlikely my body would actually hold up! It didn’t matter how
much I “wanted it”, there was to be no battle of mind over matter, I simply had
not been able to do the training to even make it round the course. And if I
tried there was a definite risk of making my injury worse. So I didn’t race this
weekend, which of course means I didn’t qualify for the European Duathlon
Champs in 5 months’ time. Luckily though, the World Duathlon Champs are a mere 6
months away, and the races to qualify for the British team are a good 4 months
away still, giving me plenty of time to get back to full fitness. Needless to
say I am a little annoyed that these late season qualification races were announced
with only a few weeks’ notice. My annoyance comes from not having time to
regain fitness after injury, but I know a number of my fellow duathletes are a
little annoyed at having last minute additions to their already long seasons,
which for many started with the British Champs back in March. I believe the
normal Spring qualification races were moved to the preceding Autumn as a
result of the poor weather conditions we experienced this Spring which
prevented some of the qualification races from going ahead as planned – so I
can understand the logic here, I just would have liked it to have fitted in
with my return from injury a little better!
So, what’s next? Well I’ll be aiming for a few Spring
Duathlons now and the World Duathlon Champs in Spain. Over the Winter I’ve got
a good few XC races to go at with the Midlands and National XC Champs being my
target races. I’m also hoping to get in a couple of 10km races as I build up my
training, so I’ve got plenty to keep me motivated to get back to full fitness.
And if my love of running wasn’t enough, I’ve got lots of club races with the
hope of team prizes and cakes to look forward to as well!